REVERIE QUARTER | EP. 3: WHERE DO I REALLY BELONG IN THIS WORLD?

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Hi Bookish peeps! Welcome to Reverie Quarter!

This is a casual weekend segment here in my blog in which I’ll be sharing and discussing my opinions, musings, ramblings and thoughts about life/blogging/books or any topics under the sun.

 

A famous author once said, “There’s a difference between living and just surviving. Do something you love, and find someone to love who loves that you love what you do.
It is really that simple. And that hard.

When I was a kid, I thought I was invincible. I thought I could do all I could ever dreamed of doing because the young soul in me thought that, everything is possible, there is no such thing as I can’t.

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I had it all planned out, I will become a doctor and I would be able to treat diseases and help the sick.  Few years later, my dream shifted, being a doctor was too big for me, so I’ll just be a nurse instead. But that also didn’t last, I have found a new calling. It was 4th grade when my love for literature and writing grew.  I’ve joined numerous speech contests, poetry recitals, even journalism wherein I was in charged to write featured articles for the school newspaper. It was a wonderful feeling that had lasted ’til high school. I would spend my days writing journals, short stories, and writing reflection papers about a certain topic made me excited. I even joined a public speaking contest.

But as the end of my high school year grew near, we had faced the moment of truth where we would pick a college degree. There is no such thing on the list of choices, or the choices  that have been given to me where I could write poetry, and explore the depths of literature. They said, it just wasn’t the type of career that will land you a good job in the future. But what is future, why do we always judge the unknown place, have not yet occurred time?

That was the very first time where I’ve felt lost and not in control of my life. My dad told me to pick Information Technology since it’s a demanding career. So I’ve picked it and made up my mind that I will have that degree and maybe writing could wait. College entrance exams came in and I’ve failed the exam of IT on the prestigious University I wanted to study in, so I was offered another choice. The courses left to take were, Business Administration, Engineering, Hotel & Hospitality Management, and Nursing. My once wide choices were narrowed down into just four. I have debated to just choose another school, but this was the only school that time that has a guaranteed full scholarship. I’ve picked Business Administration, but few hours later after I have chosen that course, I’ve informed the registrar that I wanted to change it to Hotel & Hospitality Management. I hated myself for being inconsistent, I just didn’t know what I was doing. I went on with my gut feeling.

In the middle of my college year, I decided I wanted to be a Flight Attendant. It was a pretty cool job with a decent salary and moreover, I could travel the world. Being in a hospitality industry course is a ticket to that newly found dream.

Four years later, I have graduated a Bachelor of Science degree in Hotel & Hospitality Management. For four years, I have fooled myself that this was were I truly belong. I know it’s stupid but I was just afraid to take risks of wavering again on the last minute. I could either work on the airline industry or hotel industry. That’s where my goal was headed.

I’ve failed on flight attendant interviews, even airport ground staff. So I gave up on that dream also. I have pursued jobs in a hotel and few months after graduation, I have landed a job.

Fast forward to present day, I’m on my verge of resigning. I wasn’t happy with my job, I feel like I don’t belong here. Waking up each day is a struggle because it’s another day where I would do what I don’t like. The once confident version of myself slowly become the opposite. I like people but I hate being around them for a long period of time. It gets awkward. I stutter a lot these days, and even took a break from blogging just to focus on this career. But none of it was working.

I’ve realized that I was missing out a lot of good things because I was so focused on doing what I don’t like.

Then I’ve been told that “Instead of looking where you truly belong, why not find something you think you will like and enjoy doing and just do it.

I sat down and reflected. He was right. I was finding myself in the wrong places. If I focus on what I like, maybe things won’t be so difficult at all. The dreams we had set aside, maybe it’s time to pick them up again. I guess it’s never too late to start on something you truly like.

Writing is always what I wanted to do, so I will continue writing and writing. I may never be a published author but that’s okay, as long as I still write.  I will write ’til I improve. I will write ’til I find my voice again. I will write about the things I love, for the people I love, and for the people who might be on the same page as I am. I will write ’til I find my voice again.

Maybe, I really won’t fit in anywhere. Maybe nobody ever does.  Maybe we are a wandering free soul with a wide imagination. Once we find what we truly dreamed of, never let that go, hold on to it and be the best in it. Nothing comes easy, everything takes time.

Go back to the version of yourself where you believed that everything is possible. Because it really still is. It’s a matter of how you look at things in a bigger picture. Not everyone has a mentor who will guide them the way. Even if you have, in the end, it’s all up to you.

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So many people will tell you ”no”, and you need to find something you believe in so hard that you just smile and tell them ”watch me”. Learn to take rejection as motivation to prove people wrong. Be unstoppable. Refuse to give up, no matter what. It’s the best skill you can ever learn.” – CE

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WHAT IS ONE THING  YOU TRULY LIKE DOING THAT YOU HAVE SET ASIDE?

 

Hiatus for a year, but I’m back in the game. I’ll be posting on schedule! See you around folks! ❤

 

louisse

 

 

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REVERIE QUARTER | EP. 2: THINGS I SHOULD HAVE TOLD MYSELF BEFORE

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Hi Bookish peeps! Welcome to Reverie Quarter!

This is a casual weekend segment here in my blog in which I’ll be sharing and discussing my opinions, musings, ramblings and thoughts about life/blogging/books or any topics under the sun.

Hello!

I guess things are difficult again eh? Today’s one of those days in which nothing seems so right.

Life I suppose, is a roller coaster ride. It’s a series of never ending ups and downs. Sometimes you’re on the winning side but sometimes you’re on the losing side. Sometimes, everyone favors you as if you’re the best person in the world, but sometimes they hate you as if you’re a loathsome individual who has never done any good. There are smiles which are replaced by tears. There are gladness that turned into sadness. There are some friends who turned into foes. There are people who promised to stay but eventually decided to leave.

Life is not always fair and you can never master the art of living it. You can never expect people to understand you. People will never see things the way you do. They will never understand why you get excited over the new books you received or bought or the way you feel inside bookstores or the way a certain genre of music makes you feel. Or maybe the way you play with words in a form of poetry. They’ll never understand why you like this certain dress, why you love this certain person and why you are the way you are. They will never understand because they’re not you. And they will never ever have the same depth of emotions you have. The saddest thing is, everyone hears you, appears to listen to you, but not everyone understands you.

The world is full of disapproving eyes. They will always judge or have a say no matter what you do to the point that you won’t know where to stand anymore. You put on a facade of smile to please them, to act unaffected and everything’s okay despite the mockery. You found yourself saying the things you don’t mean, doing the things you don’t usually do just to meet their standards. But deep within, you just want to runaway and be free.

“You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view… Until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it.”  ― Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird

But as we go on on this life, I’ve learned  valuable lessons I picked up based on experience– you shouldn’t apologize for being yourself. You shouldn’t wake up every morning thinking how you will act so that society will accept you, so that your friends will still include you in the group. Real friends will stay no matter who you are, in good times and in bad times. Real friendship is not seasonal, it’s everlasting.

You shouldn’t say the things you don’t mean. You shouldn’t find it hard to say NO to people sometimes. You shouldn’t be ashamed of pursuing the things you love. Whether they find you weird for liking a certain stuff, it doesn’t matter. Because this is your life, this is your story and you are the main character of this story.

You shouldn’t be afraid to speak up your mind and criticisms shouldn’t stop you as long as you know you’re being sincere and true to yourself and to the truth. People are just people, they shouldn’t make you nervous. People’s comments shouldn’t make you feel less good about yourself. Life is too short to dwell on what others think about you. If you keep on worrying and looking sideways, you’ll miss the good things in front of you.

Be bold. Be true. Be brave. After all, nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent. 

Don’t expect too much from people so you won’t end up being disappointed. Stay humble and sincere. Be good and mean it. Be kind even if the others are not.

And lastly, love yourself. Embrace who you are and what you can offer. Your flaws do not define who you are. Do not lose the essence of who you are because of the noise of the world.

And please know that, It’s okay to cry for but do not allow yourself to cry on the same reason over and over again. Do not allow others to destroy and hurt you. Nobody deserves to be treated like a crap. Everyone is busy saving themselves so you gotta save yours.

Despite everything, life is a wonderful gift. Find happiness even on little things. It’s not the end of the road for you and if you fall, always find the courage to stand up.

Life is truly hard, but it gets better… eventually, all things will fall on its place. In the right place. At the right time.

All of us are beautiful people. And we all deserve to be loved and to be treated well with honesty, compassion and sincerity. 

And when you become victorious one day, do not ever forget where you came from.

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What’s the best life advice you can give yourself and to others when things gets tough?

That’s all for today bookish peeps. Let’s face the following days with a smile.

See you again next time for the 3rd episode of Reverie Quarter. Thank you ❤

 

louisse

 

 

 

REVERIE QUARTER | EP. 1: Oh My… Reading Slump?

 

 

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Hi Bookish peeps! Welcome to Reverie Quarter!

This is a casual weekend segment here in my blog in which I’ll be sharing and discussing my opinions, musings, ramblings and thoughts about life/blogging/books or any topics under the sun.

 

So this is the 1st episode of this segment and I want to talk about Reading Slump!

We all have been there. Or maybe we are currently in there. Reading slump. It’s a threat to us as a bookworm. It is like a doctor’s findings that we dread and we don’t wanna know.

I have to admit, I just came out of reading slump today. The last book I have read was Winter and it threw me into a huge book slump. BECAUSE IT WAS SO GOOD. I felt like I can’t go on with other books. And it took me almost a week to finish Daughter of Smoke and Bone.

But BEHOLD! I have been saved and I’m finally back into reading!

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Yey! So in line with this, I will share with you guys the stuff I did to get out of the slump along with many other things on how to prevent falling. into. that. traitorous. chasm. that. destroys. our. reading. goals. and. bookish. spirit. “Reading Slump”

Let’s start our bookish chinwag!

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